seize the day.
life's too short to be unhappy for one second. everyday is a challenge. to move forward, to better ourselves as extroadinary human beings. a grand palace of happiness exists within ones own heart. no matter where. faith is the key that opens that palace.
seventeen. its as if life has just flashed right before my eyes. 3 more years of sweet teenagehood. dear god. but thats okay, a new age brings new experiences. mine being my first birthday away from mum and dad, from close family and friends. but when i think bout it, i am surrounded by close family and friends. new relationships and bonds have been forged. and it was the sweetest birthday eva.
then i found a friend, chloe. yay. but all the thoughts of my birthday being away from home rushed into my head. my eyes started swelling up and i could feel the tears built up. "omg! this is embarassing!" and chloe kept comforting me. but i got to school safely and on time... and everything started to change
(that necklace im wearing, its a candy too. i was biting of it all day..cool aye?)
monika asked me if i could stay back with her during our society class right before recess. sure thing. no worries, monika. she started talking to Mr. Hind and just didnt stop. when she finally finished, we walked to e block and i saw my cousin. julia gave me a big hug and those beautiful purple daisys. and krispy kreme!!! then i turn the corner and all my year 11 friends were gathered round a birthday cake and they all sang. really really loud. i was shocked beyond belief. i mean, OMG
they gave me heaps of presents and cards. i was speechless. no way. i just met u guys. and they did all this. unbelievable. my 17th turned out to be absolutely amazing. flowers, cake, krispykreme, pressies, where did all these come from? i was so touched by these amazing ppl. these great friends ive made. who cares if their asian and smart? i had a better birthday than some of the cool ppl who've been in carlingford since year 7. im so grateful to have these great ppl, caring bout me.i felt as if a blindfold had been removed from my eyes. it was strange that i had suffered so much feelings of lonliness and isolation. and how stupid i was for stressing out this morning. but it was fantabulous.
i had an awesome holiday in malaysia. one that caused me all the drama last week.
i spent heaps of time with mum and dad. and with friends. some of which id lost touch, some of which never changed. but overall, it kicked ass. so thank u guys for an awesome 3 weeks!
party at Jo's was heaps awesome. lets do it again sometime. (suling, gillian, debbie, jo, karmun)
dinner with tim and dao wei. brought back so many memories. and it was so much fun. i didnt want to leave.
dinner with mum and dad. early birthday celebration at some french restaurant. it was delicious. and this trip home has reminded me so much about love, family. mum and dad. i love my family so much. and they are the absolute best parents in the world. they make me so happy everyday. and i want to do the same for them.
that trip has also given me the roughest one week of my life. i never knew one could feel so much regret at one go. but i dont want to dwell over that. the important thing is i moved on. i faced my hardship and took it as a challenge. and let me tell ya, it feels damn good that i took it on. and now, im happier as eva!
mum and dad will always be with me tho im 3000 miles away. this is good for me. "what doesnt kill ya only makes the heart stronger". im going to be someone of great character. i may have to learn things the hard way but hey, thats life. just throw in buble's cd and everythings fine.
with all the encouragement, support, and love from mum and dad, friends, and family...nothing can bring me down. bring it on, mofo. wooohoo
"you must not be defeated by your sufferings. instead, live strongly and invincibly. please walk the great path of happiness, always cheerfully, boldly and proudly!" -Daisaku Ikeda
(big girls dont cry - fergie)
17-year old,
gilliangan <3